Our house is filled with the music of Soundgarden, Temple of the Dog, Audioslave and Chris Cornell. To say that my husband and I have always been huge fans would be an understatement.
I was lucky enough to see Soundgarden at Varsity Stadium the year before I met Wayne, I wish we’d gone together. Chris Cornell’s voice gives me goosebumps as I listen and reflect on a time when I really needed his music.
I was 25 years old, I had ended a 2 and a half year relationship with the “wrong guy” and moved back to Oakville from Toronto. A little late on the bandwagon, I discovered the music of Soundgarden in 1994.
They were an important band for me. They made me feel strong, cool and rebellious. I was vulnerable, I was stepping out of this “wrong guy” relationship. All we listened to was classic rock for those 2.5 years together.
I was now single, back in touch with ME!!! I needed something fresh, music to give me my power back. Soundgarden was there for me. I loved everything about Chris Cornell. I loved his long hair, his leather bands on his wrists, the long shorts with the Doc Marten’s. I loved the way he performed, how he would drop to his knees with a scream that was heaven to my ears.
I loved going to a little bar in Oakville called “The Hip”, filled with amazing people who just wanted to party and get to know each other. When you went to this bar it felt like family. I never missed a Friday night at the Hip, I was a regular and proud of it! When I entered the bar the DJ would always make sure the next song was “Outshined”. He’d wait for me to arrive then announce, “This one goes out to Moni.”
After a couple of years of being single I said to my best friend, “I want to meet someone awesome, long hair, a couple of tattoos but no booze and no drugs, I’m so done with that!”
A week later I met Wayne. He fit the profile, gave me butterflies, looked like a rock star, had a kindness I had never known. We shared a mutual love for everything Chris Cornell did musically. Soundgarden and Temple of the Dog became our music. The sparks flew and 20 years later we are still rockin’ it out together.
We are deeply saddened by the death Chris Cornell. It’s not easy to lose someone, especially when they make the choice to take their own life. So many unanswered questions.
Human beings are complicated. You never know what makes a person suffer, what sets them off or what makes them want to give up. Everyone’s perspective on life is different. We cannot judge, we can only accept the fact that we really do not understand. All we can do is show kindness towards the people that we love and remember that nothing is personal.
I will continue to love Chris Cornell and thank him for the music that he created. He was there for me at a time when I needed to be saved and he led me to the man I love.
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